Said you loved me, said you would give me your entire savings, wanted to live with me, wanted to be with me forever, now you're talking about hookups even though they weren't hookups and how you want to keep erping with a dude online despite him being with someone and it being not ok for me and stopping us from moving forward.
We already know some of the items in this list are exactly what Thor wants:
you loved me
wanted to live with me (recall that Thor persuades Lyric on this, it’s not Lyric’s own idea.)
wanted to be with me forever
And then there is this item thrown right in the middle
you would give me your entire savings
Doesn’t that seem a little strange? Usually this is not what people fixate on. “You said that you loved me, that you want to be with me forever, that you
would give me all of your money” just seems a little unsettling to me. Surely this is just speculation…
Let’s explore this for a moment.
Thor is referring to a single message that Lyric sent:
that one night i asked you how much to make heartbound free i was thinking about dumping my entire savings into it but what i have is nowhere compared to what those companies offered you xP
It was only mentioned in conversation that one time, and Lyric also made
numerous donations to Thor. But isn’t it interesting that this is one of the
core facets that Thor remembers?
He remembers that small quip. But why recount this detail specifically? Why not
Lyric asking for sleep calls?
Lyric staying up late for Thor, even though they have 8am classes?
Lyric acting like a pet?
There’s something more here.
This is selective memory at play. He’s not telling us what happened in the
past, he is telling us how he saw Lyric at their best.It’s a
description of his ideal version of Lyric.
Not only is that his ideal version of Lyric, he deserves to have that
Lyric. Sad hyena tells us that Thor is “hurt” and sees Lyric as taking
away that vulnerable and obsessed version of themselves. You will see in
these upcoming messages that Thor desperately wants to get down to the bottom
of this: why did Lyric stray from this path? And more importantly, what
can Thor do now to keep Lyric under his control?
Thor desires for Lyric to have an unhealthy obsession with him. Sexual obsession, emotional obsession… Thor wants absolute control of Lyric. In his mind, Thor needs to correct this as it is the biggest threat to his goals.
Thor can speak plainly about his true goals to Lyric, because any
“unnecessary” resistance from Lyric would lead to more bullying and
beratement.
Mon, Oct 1, 2018
with time I became more and more scared of what you think of me
Thor is frustrated at Lyric’s response, not just the message but also Lyric being more hesitant.
Notice his use of sarcasm here: I believe this is actually a defensive trait of his. I believe he recognizes his comment drove Lyric farther away than he wanted to, and he views it as a blunder. So, he is playing defensively in this statement, and now he is trying to convince Lyric why that statement was justified, eg “You need me to say things like that to keep you in check!”.
Thor is frustrated, because it wasn’t a blunder, until Lyric “misinterpreted” what Thor was saying.
Said you loved me, said you would give me your entire savings, wanted to live with me, wanted to be with me forever, now you're talking about hookups even though they weren't hookups and how you want to keep erping with a dude online despite him being with someone and it being not ok for me and stopping us from moving forward.
